at the end of a busy week of training i adopted what i like to call my ‘i don’t care attitude’ going in to the last session i was leading. to be honest, i should really adopt this attitude far more often and i’m not sure why i don’t. to be clear: it wasn’t that i didn’t care about the content, people, etc, it’s just that i wasn’t going to let anything rattle me. regardless of what happened that day i wasn’t going to stress over it and it’s a good thing i had that attitude on that particular day. in between multiple room changes, guest speakers that usurped my time and a few other monkey wrenches thrown in there, had i been worried about how the day was going to go then i would have been a mess. judging by the reaction to my absurdly flexible responses i have to believe that the attitude went over well. i was thanked profusely for my flexibility. here is what is eating at me: why don’t i always have this attitude? i have a few theories:
- it was content i knew backwards/forwards and i enjoy having he discussions that i was going to have that day
- i was tired from a hard week – it’s amazing how post-stress we can relax so easily
- i was familiar with the campus and teachers
- i finally hit a point in this job that i have turned the corner and this was just the first of many experiences like this i will have
- the stars aligned and that’s just the way it went that day
i’m not even sure i could replicate the whole experience. i’ll have many, many opportunities to do so as sessions crank up this fall and i hope i can adopt the same attitude, but for some reason i’m not hopeful. my preparation for a session usually involved a wicked series of dread that culminates when the session begins. i’m hopeful.